I'm going to rant, I have to, I need to get this on paper, and for once melo isn't a place I can go because She is there. I like her so much, I can't say love, but something inside of me wants to. I want to be the person she smiles at, I want it to be for me. I know she sees me, really I do, but I'm stuck in a ditch and I don't know how to go forward. I want to just tell her everything, how she manages to sneak into my thoughts and I smile and am happy when I think about her, how her smile can make my day a smidge brighter. And if I had the courage that I want to hold her hand, to hold her, to know the feeling of her lips on mine. Damn... I'm pathetic, but it is true, and I almost spilt my heart out to her now, thank goddesses she signed off... I probably would have lost her forever... Why am I this impatient? Why can I not get her out of my thoughts? I see her everyday, and I miss her more than I ever did Ilana, who is an hour away. I want her to see me, like that, more than anything... I'm falling for someone I hardly know, and haven't even been on a single date with... Dammit, I'm pathetic...