The subject of this blog is girlfriends, the deficit of potentials and my incredibly pickyness.

Is it just me or is there a distinct lack of potenential people to go out with. With my disticnt lack of knowledge of gay people combined with me not liking clubbing because I can't dance, or talk to people in noisy environments(and probably not being able to get in) - I am assuming most people go to clubs to meet other gay people I can not see how I am going to meet other gay people who are not my friends. I know gay people, but they are friends not lovers and even then I do not know very many gay people meaning even if all of them desperately wanted to go out with me I still wouldn't be left with much of a selection this is also enhanced by me being a perfectionist when choosing people who i would consider going out with so at the moment i don't really fancy anyone. I feel asexual, but not.

Also, even though I know some gay people I still feel like i don't belong. They all seem to like clubbing and going out etc wheras i'm kinda hippyish - the whole world peace thing and like to have conversations about things such as globalisation (not saying weather it is good or bad) etc and would rather spend an evening in a park with my friends than go out dancing.

I have also decided that the type of people I fancy are incredibly intellectual, are good at talkng and are more dominant and i don't many people like this, let alone lesbians like this. Does anyone else feel the same way? and will things get better at uni?

But then at uni, I'll have to come out all over agian and am scared that people won't be as liberal as where I live.

Blue skies

Alice