Today's deep thought (which is also now my signature): "The hardest thing in this world is to live in it. Be brave, live."

There are so many ways this quote could be taken and applied to life, and it's probably different for everyone, so I'm just going to leave it for you to ponder. (By the way, it's from the tv show Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

*** On to my life:

Well, I've been home for a week now...I had a horrendous time getting here, it took 12 hours instead of 5 to get home, but I got here. It's kind of wierd. I'm really enjoying being home, being able to sleep in till noon, hanging out with my family, etc., but at the same time I feel like there's really nothing here for me except for my family. I mean, I have a few friends I've seen, but other than that... I feel guilty, because I really haven't missed my family much this year, I don't know why. I never have had a problem with being homesick. I'm not sure if it's because I'm an extremely independent person or what, but I just have never had that problem. I don't even know where I'm going with this ramble... lol ... it's just kinda coming out. I just don't have much of a "connection" with my home town (at least for the past 5 1/2 years) and it feels like I'm missing something.

On other topics...the friend of mine that I was hoping to possibly "hook up" with over break...well, that's definitely not happening. I mean, she's great, but she's going to try and get back with her boyfriend after break, and I don't even really want to be with her anymore. I never really did, I think it's just the fact that she flirts with *everyone*

Now that that issue is pretty much resolved in my own mind, I just feel more like my personal life is going NOWHERE. I ranted a week or so ago about how hard it is to meet people on campus, and I just don't know what to do about it. Some part of me knows that I should just sit back and not worry about it, but I'm getting increasingly lonely and am tired of living vicariously through my friends. I want the chance to get out there and date. *sigh* We'll see...maybe I'll magically meet someone in one of my classes when they start up again in January.

Well, that's all for now, folks. Have a good night, happy holidays & have a great New Years. :)

~Tiffany