little help please?

Beryl's picture

Im putting a queer-centric poem in the highschool literary magezine, and need some advice on it. I really want it to be spotless so there's less for people to pick at and they can focus on the message I'm trying to get across. So yeah, if anyone can give me any adviceI'd be greatful! ^_^
Also, I need it kinda soon cause I think the deadline is this week.

Open mouth, insert foot
thats what I'm thinking
when that word slips past your lips
made ugly by your tone.
You look around in confusion
as everybody stares at you
and me,
wondering if you'll catch on
what I'll say.
and I guess I've never been
one to disapoint,
because I dig out my most casual grin
as my stomach churns
in reaction to the fear I feel.
Fear of how you'll react,
will you say something, or even worse
jsut give me that look?
Will you hate me, fear me even?
Will I lose another friend?
"Hey, find a better adjective please."
I request simply,
trying not to come off as uptight.
You look at me in confusion,
and then realization.
A quick apology, and then you leave
as fast as you came.
A friend makes an understandign face,
and I smile back appreciatively, try to brush it off
"yeah, so how about them Red Sox?"
A quick laugh, and everyone moves on,
forgets.
I can move on, but I can't forget,
need to be ready
for the next time I smile as we pass
and you look away fast
so not to meet my eyes.
Yeah, thats gay alright.

My main worry is that it isn't obvious enough for straight people for whom abuse of the word gay isn't an issue. Besides that, grammar, puncuation, (usually I don't use it, but I liked it here) flow, ect. ect.

thanks a bunch!!

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manda's picture

good! good! good! really good

good! good! good! really good! really really really really good!
would you mind too horribly if i printed it out and put it in my locker?
i've dealt with that issue *so many* times, as i'm sure everyone else
here has (i usually say either "really? i didn't know [pre-stated
"gay" object] could be homosexual" or "no. [object]'s aren't gay. i'm
gay. [object]'s aren't."), and it'd be so encouraging for me to be able to
look at that every day and remember that i'm not the only person
in the world who has to put up with the word "gay" being constantly used
in such a negative way.

anyway, i only have one suggestion: your last line "yeah, thats gay alright"...
make it "that's" instead of "thats". and in your second line "thats what
i'm thinking"...make it "that's" instead of "thats" as well. other than that,
fabulous! good luck with the magazine!

peace,
manda

Beryl's picture

wow, thanks! ^_^

thanks a lot! Sure you can put it in your locker, I have no problem. *feels special*
Yeah, my GSA had a whole huge rant/disgussion on that today, its everywhere! The idea we came up with is we are going to keep track of everytime we heard it, and personally I'm going to put a red slash on my arm, to represent the pain it causes to hear words like 'fag' or 'gay' and 'queer' used out of context. I always roll my sleeves up, so its going to be pretty obvious and I figure it will be a good way of showing how rediculous this is.
thanks a lot for the grammar advice. Duh, I knew that, I don't know why I
forgot. Good thing you caught it! ^_^
~B

only.me's picture

i like

hey,
i really really liked that. good job! thanks for the note earlier!
karyn

Beryl's picture

Thanks a lot!

It means a lto to know people like my writing! No prob on the note, I think you and Michelle are really sweet and wish you the best of luck!

~B