I haven't blogged in awhile, but I'm quite...grumpy tonight. My dorm's having a formal on Saturday. My friend knows a lesbian on the rowing team she's on, and thought that she might be able to set me up with someone she knows. This almost happened for halloween, but my friend waited too long. Anyways, so I bought a pair of tickets hoping that the situation would work out. Just my luck...she told me today that her friend didn't think she'd be able to help. So now I'm stuck with a pair of tickets and I feel like I'm never going to go on a real date.
I'd actually gotten my hopes up this time...I don't know why, it was stupid of me, really. But I did...and now I'm paying for it. I don't really want to admit how upset I am, but I'm just so at my ropes end feeling like there's no way to meet people here!!! I mean, I'm involved in the gay stuff here on campus, but it's seriously like, 90% guys most of the time. I just don't know what to do. I could ask my guy friend in a near-by dorm, but I don't want to go with a guy friend. I want to go on a real date with a girl with whom I at least have a fleeting possibility of having a romantic encounter with. Is that too much to ask??????
I feel so petty rambling on about all this, but I can't help but feel what I feel...