I have failed. My words have failed me, my reasoning and logic have failed me. Words are useless, only action can undo what is said. And still here I sit wasting energy on words. Remember when I told you about the girl, told you I was falling, told you how incredible and amazing she was. What was the use in that? What was I trying to prove? What was I really trying to say? And still what the hell am I trying to say? I never make any sense. I am in love with Sneezinggurl. I've hidden it from you, out of fear. Fear of what, who the hell knows. Now she's found something that I hid from her. I'm going to lose her completely this time, and I don't know what to do. I am completely in love with her, whatever you say, theres no other way to say it, I don't deserve her. Even as I'm writing this, theres still something in me that is desperately hoping she'll keep me.