All right, I know, it sounds dirty but it isn't. In the long hours of my Solo at camp I did alot of self searching. I don't like who I am in general. I can be rude, self centered, and just plain mean. I need to fix that, as well as the fact that I don't work nearly as hard as I should in school, or anywhere else for that matter. I am starting out by getting back into shape. I am working out everyday and it is one of the most fulfilling things I have ever done for myself.

I probably spent more time contemplating the world we live in... which wasn't a good idea. I'm about ready to go live on a desert island. I cannot stand how we (especially us americans) have no respect for anyone or anything around us. We run corrupt governments, take money away from the people's taxes the should go to school, and instead gets sent to the military. Instead of people who need welfare getting it, people abuse it because it is easier than actually working a job. It is sick. I hate it, I can't do anything about it. I am 16, what am I going to do, send a letter, write a petition? How many people listen to that, it'll get thrown in the "slush pile" along with every other letter along the same lines. We have no respect for the environment, other people, our world, or even ourselves. I am so frustrated, maybe I'm just a typical teenager being angry at the world, but I have reasons, and I wish I could do something about it other than sitting here, doing my community service, holding my protests, and writing my letters to the lunkheads in power...