I got home and I get excited because Matt has e-mailed... I open it, and he is thinking we should break up. Dammit, why can nothing ever work for me? Yes, this is hard but I LOVE him and I have broken things off with Zach, and not done anything, WHAT DID I DO??? WHY? Matt has made me happy again, its been probably 4 or 5 months since I was depressed or was cutting, and alot of it has had to do with him. It hasn't fully hit me yet, but I've already cried twice today... Damn, I pathetic, I come here to cry about relationships and it is all I can think about... I need to move on, this is so horrible of me...
Goddess....