Its so cold! Not really, but I feel cold more than most, and I've got a cold, so I feel icky. gar...
I still like her. Yeah. Its wierd, Im not sure how this is all going to turn out. Got hope though. I want a mug that says that. Instead of got milk, got hope. (randomousity....)
My dads gone off the wall. Its really to complicated to write down, but if you didn't know, my parents are divorced. My father has anger management problems, a history of harrassing our local police, ( I know, wtf is that?!) guns, and this issue about letting go of my mom and family and letting us move on with our live. I swear hes stalking us or something. Drives past our house at random hours, makes excuses to come over, calls mom without real reason at all hours when he has us, trying to 'catch her with someone else'. Hes never admitted thats what hes doing, but we know what hes up too. He goes through our trash. What is that? Yeah, there issues, and we're changing the locks on the front door, so he cant come in when we're out. Hes done that too. We know because he moves stuff. We can't have amnonia in the house anymore because he has this thing about cleaning our house with it, regardless of if we tell him not to, even when I give reasons or ask nicely. My front door is next to a beautiful picture window, mom's pride and joy, and Im afraid when he finds his key doesn't work it'll be his fist going through it. I jsut home me and my kid sister aren' there. The sucky thing is, he acts doddering and innocent and charming in public, exept when hes shittin the police, of course, so no one knows how bad it is. Its hard for people to believe, becuae we don't brake down and cry,or come in with bruises. Although mum and I suspect if hed been in the house a year or two longer, we would have been. No, most of the damage is emotional. My sister hides under the dining room table with the dog if anyone but me raises their voice, because of the yelling, and shes nine. None of the woman in my family trust guys much, including me, my best friend Ollie being the one exception. The bigger they are, the worse it is. My brother is an emotionally invert. There are maybe two people that he actually lets know them for him, the rest of us are left to wonder. Wow this got long, but Im just ranting. *scrolls up. and up. and up.* Shites, yeah, this is long, ok, Im going to go now. I don't want anyone worrying about us though, I know this sounds pretty bad, but we got it mostly under control, with good friends watching over us, and if it gets really bad the police are keeping an eye on the house. Now That, my friends, was what I consider a startling discovery.
this random babblage is brought on becuase we almost had a bad situation on our hands the last day or so. It was bad. Me and mom were kinda scared. One of the good things though is I don't think anyone really took what I was saying about him seriously, or got how bad it was, (me included, in some ways) but I think I sounded funny when I told the two people I talked to about it, so now they understand. It might be petty, but it helps to know they finally get it. *shrug*