homesick for school

dazed and confused's picture

I haven't blogged in awhile...not quite sure why, probably because I've been busy readjusting to life at home, and I really haven't had any gay-inspired angst recently.

Anyways, I'm blogging today because my summer vacation really sucks right now.

1) I can't find a job (I've been applying all over...I just want a job...any job that I can earn some money at...think theatre attendant, burger king, walmart...)

2)After coming home I realized how few friends I really have here at home. The one friend I do have who is home right now isn't into doing much, and I've left two messages with my (sort of) best friend, and she still hasn't contacted me...In 2 1/2 weeks...

3)Due to the lack of a job and lack of friends I don't have much else to do that stay at home all day, and I'm going crazy. It's seriously depressing, and I'm starting to feel awful.

In short, I miss all my friends from school, and just want to go back. I wish I could just close my eyes and have the summer be over with. Even though it would mean time for classes again, it would still be worth it. The only possible ray of hope on the horizon is the fact that one of my really good friends in coming home on Friday. I haven't seen her since August of last summer...she's asked me to go out clubbing with her... yay :)

*sigh* There's no way in hell I'm doing this again next summer. I'll either be somewhere at an internship or doing service work all summer, but I am NOT coming back home. It's not worth it.

Right now I feel like curling up in a little ball and crying myself to sleep, but I think I'll go return the movies like my mom asked me to. I was hoping a friend or two would be online to rant to, but that's not the case.

Sorry this is so depressing, Not that anyone's probably reading this. I just feel the need to blog more when I feel like this than when life is all good, if ya know what I mean.

-Tiffany

Comments

alice's picture

I know how it feels

I read, i related. At least I have revision to take my mind of it and give me something to do.
Hope things get better.

Tiki's picture

aw

that happened to me the summer after my freshman year - don't worry - you're not the only one. :( hope it gets better!

Dreaming of the Blue Hawaiian Diner...