(just worte this but deleted it accidentally so jaded)
Went to my friend's house party, townies invaded and took crack and e, tried to chuck them out but they wouldn't leave.
As people do, people drank. My 'friend' Beccy, told this guy that she fancied (john) that I wasn't sweet, but told him not to tell me, but cus he was pissed, he did. But why does she think this, I know that she's annoyed with me, cus you can just tell and shes allways told me that i'm not sweet to my face, but the fact that she told him not to say must mean that she actually is annoyed for a specific reason and not just because i'm annoying (which is good in a way). Furthermore he even told him why i'm not sweet so i know she has a reason, i just don't know what it is. (note- it's not that she said i'm not sweet that is confusing me, it's that she ahs a reason).
Is it cus the other guy (that's gay) puts his arm around me (a long time ago) cus i'm the perfect height to lean on which would tie into the whole being small and therefore sweet and that she got jealous when i was sitting on him on the tube?
(this happened afterwards) Or becasue when John was talking to me about how we went to the same primary school and how he thought i was cool and how he remembered my friends and I (he;s a year younger so its not like remebering some in your class). Beccy after about 3 minutes of this converstaion says 'can you not talk about year 5). She has to appriciate that I am not going to steal her potential boyfriends.
What I wanted people's comments on is that when people say things (nice things, cus i know Beccy meant it), do they mean it? Or are they just saying it? I HATE not knowing what people really mean. I hate it when you don't really know what someone really thinks of you.
I will have to talk to Beccy on Monday, and ask her why she anonnoyed, hopefully she will give me a straight answer. If people are annoyed with you then if they don;t tell you why then firstly it's because they do not have a good reason to be because if they did then they wouldn't mind saying why? (or is this not the case and they don;t what to hurt your feelings?) and secondly you can;t explain why they are being irrational, correct what you did wrong or know what to do in the future