my heart has a vertical metal skewer through it... and there is a sharp metal pinwheeel spinning around it... not because of wind... there are two huge magnets on either side of my heart and they are pushing together although they are facing eachother's opposite poles... they are trying to crush my heart but they cant. they just make the pinwheel spin... the blood that drips out is unneeded, really... but its filling up all the wrong places. i can feel it in my stomach. it pours out of my eyes. i can taste it. it makes me cough.
Love i would like to feel but i cant it seems while i am young and so curious about this world....which keeps denying me.