(I'm trying this, but I won't be on until tomorrow)
March 10, 2003
~Well, Rachael had a denist app. this morning so she didn't ride the bus. Joey told me she had been crying because Josh, Daniel and me had been ignoring her. And today when I saw her and was going to talk to her, she ignored me, so I'm pissed. Things were so much easier when we were just friends.
~Jonathan and Tim both came to me, seperately of course, and told me they might be bi, and not to tell anyone.

March 11, 2003
~Today, Jonathan almost was in tears because I said he didn't care about me, and he does. He said he's not bi, and that his g/f might be pregant.
~I found out Brandy, Shannon, and Danielle all like Rachael. Shannon told Rachael to "forget Tasha because I love you". I read the note she wrote it in.
~When I got on the bus, Zack got a hug from me, and then Joey wanted one, and when I gave him a hug, he kissed my neck.
~Rachael told me she was mad because I ignored her and said I needed to realize I'm going with her, not just James.

I wrote three poems today but here's the one...

Jonathan

I hate you
For how you make things
Complicated
I love you
For how you make me feel
Loved

I'm not allowed to feel this way
I don't even know if you care
Why can't I be the one you hold
In your arms at night?
Why can't I be the one you kiss?
You make me feel so right.

I hate you
Because I can't have you
I love you
And I want you so

You're suppose to be my friend
And a friend only
But everything in me wants you
My soul needs you
You keep me alive
Why did I tell you not to care?

.:So what did you think?
~Tasha