The Call of the Abyss

I'm standing on the edge of the Abyss,
But it's not dangerous,
It's the Abyss of my mind.
But is that even more riven with dark and harm?
If I fall in, will I die?
Do I want to die? Or maybe the question is do I want to live?
Whatever my choice, I will not let them see into the Abyss.
I'll place an icy cover over my emotional television.
I couldn't hurt them with my selfishness
I'm leaning too far over, I must watch it
The Abyss smells acrid and I see how empty it is.
The sides slope ominously inwards
I'm daringly standing by it on one foot
Shit! I slipped slightly, they think i did it on purpose
I'm scared. I don't want to die I want my life.
But the ledge where I'm standing gives way.
I'm falling, falling, falling
But it's not falling, it's floating
I try to feel relief for I am alive
I cannot feel, I cannot cry.
I was wrong, living doesn't feel like this.
I wish I hadn't tempted the Abyss for it is alive
But they don't know I've fallen,
for I always pretended to be devoid of feelings
Now I am and I finally know what hell truly is.