Well, I finally made the big speech to my parents.

Not that it was hard to see I was gay, not with the huge "LESBIANATION" on my computer. The fact I haven't brought any boys home, my general speech.

It started at dinner. Then I mentioned college aps and said I should put down that I was gay because I read that some colleges are looking to reach out to the gay community.

You know the buzzer sound? The gong shell? It was as if little lights when off screaming "You've just said the worst possible thing in the world!!!!"

The prize behind door number 2 was the fact my father isn't speaking to me. My mother cried. Very dramatic. What kills me is the fact they said it was wrong of me to say this at the dinner table with my brother present. He's 16. He's 16 and the only person in my house to say he loved me and supported me and gave me a hug. My father said there was no reason to say this.

It was deflating, but you know what, I'm glad it's out officially. The school has been great, I have no complaints about them and I'm graduating June 7 and leaving the house, so I don't feel too bad about things. I regret not coming out at school sooner, but other than that, I'm doing good.