to say what I mean. gar.

is it supposed to hurt,
finding yourself?
not the kind of
journey-hardship-struggles
on-the-way hurt.
more like the
your-already-there,
at-the-last-stop, of-the-train,
broken-with-no-refund
blink-back-the-pins-in-your-eyes-hurt.
you know the one?
that kind of