Aarrgh... Here's the deal. I came home last Friday for spring break. I'll be leaving next Sunday. There's a very good chance that I'll be on the Standing Committee for Gay and Lesbian Student Needs next school year. If this happens, I'll be out to everyone at school. I want to be able to share with my mom the news I get over whether or not I get accepted for the committee, but to do that, I obviously have to come out to her. This isn't something that I want to keep having to hide. Before coming home, I decided that I was definitely going to come out to my mom while home.
Well, I'm home, and it's just not happening. Every time I even thing about telling my mom that I need to talk to her, I freeze up, and my stomach hurts. I'm going CRAZY over this!!! I really do want to come out to my mom, but I have no idea how to do this. I know that the easiest way would just be to find what little guts I have and just tell her, but that doesn't seem to be happening.
Here's a list of possiblities I can think of...
1)Leave my mom a note that I want to talk to her. I've had success with this method in the past both in coming out to my roommate and my RA.
2)Somehow find the guts to tell my mom that I need to talk to her, after dinner perhaps) Feels a bit unlikely at the moment, but not entirely out of the question.
3)Wait until I get back to school and write her a nice long letter, and see what she says when we talk on the phone the next Tuesday (our phone-call night). I haven't come out to anyone this way... (unless you count the time i came out to someone through email). This definitely has it's plus-es, but I'm afraid it's...how do I put this...inadequate.
Anyways, I know, when push comes to shove, what happens is ultimately my decision, but in the meantime, does anyone have any advice or suggestions??? I'm at the end of my rope here, and I know many of you have been in a similar situation before. I basically have 5 days before I go home. *sigh*