I need a man. I need someone to be romantically involved with. At school everyday I see these guys that I think are gay/bi and I wish that they would just come out of the freaking closet. Then I remind myself that I, too, am in the closet. I want to come out to my school so badly, but I don't know how long I'll be able to carry the burden of being the only "out" person there. I was giving blood at my school's biannual blood drive and I sat next to a friend whom I see rarely anymore and she asks if there are any girls in my life. I wanted to tell her that I was gay because I knew she would be okay with it, but I was worrying about everyone around me freaking out, or worse yet, the nurses ripping the IV out of my arm and accusing me of having AIDS.

Come to think of it, I'm sure there are people who are out. Maybe not in my grade or in any of my classes or maybe its just not a big deal that it doesn't warrant a rumor to fly across the school. Meh. There's always college. In 6� months. I can tread the water for that long. After all, I've been treading for 18 years now....

Peace.