You know I always just type the title of the song that is currently playing. Almost all of my journals are like that clear back to three years ago.
I am keeping these as a log for myself, whether or not anyone reads them is a plus. I like looking back. Gives me good perspective.

I have some silly things to whine about today.
I'm employed as a PART time employee. YET, by the end of tomorrow, I'll have worked 38 hours this week. On top of a 16 credit hour class schedule. If I weren't so skilled at time management, I'd probably be really stressed. I don't even want to think about getting closer to midterms and finals with tests and speeches every week.

Also, the girl I kind of have a small crush on is not single. For some reason, my soc prof asked everyone in significant relationships to raise their hands; my little crush raised hers, damnit.

So my rant of the week! Why is everything pretty so low cut? I'm trying to pick out my outfit for Queer Winter Formal this weekend.

So yeah my kindle fire is doing great with the note-taking app and the required e-book. I'm happy about that and I've met two great guys. I have a guy I can talk games and pokemon with and a guy whom I can talk to about computer stuff. It's been a nice second week into the semester. I feel like a $13 bill (which isn't saying much to the reader). lol

im back online my sister took away my laptop, phone rights, webcam and a ton of other stuff for no reason :(

she still has my Webcam and wont give it back

so any way im back again, still with emma though :)

Things I will miss. Things that will make me bawl my eyes out. A list.

Her rubbing her feet on mine when we sleep because it makes her sleepy and I think it's super cute. Her rubbing her feet on mine anytime because she loved me.
Waking up in the morning seeing the light touch her face. Outlines of her face. Sharp. Angular. Pretty. Sleeping. I could stare for a long time. Kissing her in her sleep. Smelling her hair.
My kisses. I always kissed her everywhere. She loved that. Her neck. And collar bone and hair and stomach. Her hands.

Today was my first day of work back. I'm lucky I had those two days in a row off when it happened. It was ok. Not that good, though. It was slow. I felt just up and down kind of. Before this happened I was up and down but it was super high energy-hyper and then a little morose. And today it was between trying not to think about it and feeling like punching myself in the face versus being a little bit ok. It was too slow. I made sure I wasn't completely distracted. I kept it in the back of my mind.